The story about that nightmare

I fell down again
When I lost my faith
That success wouldn't be mine
And I pray
That I will no longer hold back
So the creator said
Overcome this nightmare
By keeping my faith
You say fuck love
Fuck religion its nothing
But a hoax
And you believe
That money is
The root of all evil
No the corruption remains
With the people
Who are brain washed
So you continue
To stab the truth
With your pain & fear
So da devil
Put you in his nightmare
And you didn't even know it
You think it was love
That caused chaos
It was that self hatred
That began slavery
So it wasn't the white man
That stole our identity
We lost our ways
When being kings & queens of God
Wasn't enough to stay alive
And it remains the truth
That this generation believes
Obama is here to save us
More like it became
Black Friday again
We already had
7 black presidents
And we don't wana become educated
Cause we too busy
Smoking & drinking
That everything is a conspiracy
We still demasculate ourselves
Just to get admiration, respect,
Justice & equal rights
Da devil is telling us
That being that change
Will only get you killed
For spitting the truth
The government set it up
To program us
To panic about paying bills, loans and taxes
Cause they believe
Being rich is the only way
So how can da devil
Stop being a beast of persecution
If we the people
Can't show that love
Is the truth
To it all
The creator gave us
A second chance
Not to remain
In da devils nightmare

Da Battle of Ignorance

If black lives mattered
Then why did we
Turn our back
On the man
Who created us
Because holding on to faith
Was never the truth
Lucifer was a king
But he couldn't
Stop questioning why
Being a man of faith
Is the only way out
So his emotions grew dark
And he drank that ignorance
But we were all
Kings & Queens
That got fed up
Cause love had no drama
But you believe
This is not the reason
On why the human race
Is no longer alive
Lucifer started a rumor
And we began
Drinking that ignorance
Ever since fake love
Became the truth
And we claim
We are educated
But all we see
That its black against white
Mexixans against white
Latinos & Latinas against white
Not knowing that
Lucifer started a war
Called love versus hate
So why are we saying
Black lives matter
If we don't know
Our ancestors threw away
That black love
Cause slavery destroyed
The trust & loyalty
We had for each other
Don't let the police brutality
Infect you with
This drug called hate
Cause if we enter this war
With that hate
As the revelation
Then black people
Should just commit suicide
That ignorance remains a sickness
Cause we still sag
Thinking it means having class
And we promote
That being a gangsta
Is the truth
To our pain
Not it's a sickness
Like that ignorance
And you still say
Being black is beautiful
Then why is the hood
Still a disease
Cause no one is teaching
That love is the cure
The Mexicans won't stop
Chopping of heads in Mexico
Because selling cocane
Is the only way
And Donald Trump
Is nothing but a host
To summon the beast
Just wanting to kill
The people who built Amerika
It was that ignorance
That created fear
But we say
Faith, love, prayer, unconditional love, forgiveness, peace, justice
And change don't exist
Then why wake up to live
We wake to live
To be that change
So we can rewrite
The history of ignorance

Love is not a wet dream

Da creator made
A warrior of love
But Lucifer let
That myth of
Becoming a beast
Send him to jail
Where love had no faith
And he became
That nightmare on elm street
Turning the human race
Into a horror film
So can I
Recite this poem
Before you send
Your rebels of evil
To rape me
Lucifer your just mad
Cause love is
My ultimate weapon
So he made
Da creation of love
Nothing but a wet dream
And most men
Rather be a beast
Spitting that fake love
Just to get women
Hooked on that sex
And now da women
Protect themselves with that pain
Stopping love to speak to them
I guess da devils motto
Is da only love
We rather accept
Da Universe bleeds
With no one stepping up
To teach that love
Is da revolution
So we still believe love
Is nothing but
A wet dream
We spent too much time
Killing each other
That we must stop
This war of evil
And turn these demons
Back into warriors of love
Lucifer it doesn't matter
How much chaos you cause
Cause love will rewrite
The damage history
Love is not
A wet dream
Being that beast
From that myth
Is nothing but
A wet dream

When love calls it will speak short story

Jun 21 at 8:59 PM

When love calls it will speak
Intro
The reason why love is my favorite word. Is because I spent my days running away from it, saying the pain was too much. Love is my favorite word, because it taught to forgive those, who gave me pain. It taught me to learn from that pain. Then when love called for me, which was the creator, poetry &music. I just knew I had to become that voice of love, that was never dead. Because to me love translates to L for loyalty, O is obtaining it as a shield. V is victory, for overcoming that pain, trials & tribulations, struggles & storms of love. And E is for that everlasting excitement of happiness.

The pain of love

Why can't we crave love like we do food and alcohol. It's because food gives us that orgasm that we need. And alcohol makes us loose & excited for that sexual penitration. We constantly throw up love, because we haven't forgiven or learned. From that pain & fake love, that gives love more truth and power. We can't have that everlasting love & happiness. If we haven't overcome being mentally ill, emotionally ill, physically ill, & spiritually ill. I didn't know what love was until. I went through a sickness of being abused and persecuted. Because of how I looked. So I use to wake up thinking I was ugly. The pain that was given to me, sent me to a dark place, where I didn't want love or to be seen. Then I looked to my parents to see if they had kept love alive. I was torn with disappointment, because all I use to see. Was them arguing and constantly having sex, to erase their anger. There was one day where, we were all in the car. Then  my parents got to arguing & then my dad got mad, where he physically hit my mom. So this is what love is, a woman who gets abused. My mom remained strong no matter what, working hard to take care of her kids. So my mom took my dad thinking he was gone change. But he let alcohol become his life & love of temptation. How do us kings keep love alive, if we can't express ourselves. Let alone keep communication alive, our imperfections should be our tools. For keeping love alive. So my mom had enough, of my dad not helping out financially. And she was fed up with my dad, who was always passing out from alcohol. So the years went by, & we have moved to Santa Monica California. For that new lifestyle. Did my mom give up on love, no she got tired. Of dealing with men who remained boys. It made me think could love heal you, & save you. Yes if you don't reject it, when it calls for you, to speak to you. Two years went by & that's when my mom met the love of her life. His name is Dennis Gary &, my mom Portia Walker told him alot about me. So him & I played a game of chess, to get to know one another.  I had won the first of many games being played between us. A father figure and male role model, has been brought back into my sister's & I life. I was so happy & inspired again, that love called to speak to my mom. This was a love story like no other, & it so deep. Cause he wasn't a beast, that came to just bust nuts. They stepped in the name of love, like a black king & black queen should. Mr. Gary & Ms. Walker didn't hide their affection for one another. That their days consisted of writing love letters,& him catering to my mom. Letting her know she is that love that never ends. Then my dad hears about the new man, that came into my mom's life. So he finally was trying to take back, that love that was never dead. By buying a wedding ring & proposing to my mom. Who already had love that didn't hurt. My step dad had taught me not to be soft, or scared of love, that calls & speaks to you. And my dad taught me not to waste a woman's time or love. Just because we have lost faith in love. Doesn't mean a man & a woman, haven't been through that same pain. Then my step dad became ill in November 2006, & he didn't let my mom know. But she found out because he wasn't looking the same. This tore my mom's heart because they set to get married. And we were a family that had so much love &happiness. Our last family outing was at Red Lobster restaurant, enjoying one last time as a family. On March 9th 2007 he passed away at St. John's Hospital, Santa Monica California. This was the night before my track meet, sophomore year of high school. I didn't have the right mindset to run this race the next day. But I could hear his voice saying, don't soft or scared now. When things in life happen we must continue to live, & fight for that lifestyle you want. I know it wasn't going to be easy, but I wasn't going to forget the stories he told. See when love calls it will speak, the question is will we. As human beings continue to reject it, persecute it & run away from it. We make the battle even harder when we, don't return to the creators love & unconditional love. That love that called for my mom, didn't fade away it forever lives with in her heart.

A man who rejected love until

As I got older I had to learn that, the king & queen must become one & working as one. I use to think love wasn't for me, due to my insecurities. But that changed my junior year of high school, fall of 2007. I had met this fine young queen, who was only one year younger than me. It was even more sexy that she was made different. We started out talking as friends & we met in spanish class. She told me she was a sophomore, & I said you look older, so she laughed. And told me her name is Katie and my name is Jarvon. I didn't know all that time of me & her having conversations. Would lead to another love story, for me to wake up when love called for me, to speak to me. So everyday at lunch time she would approach me, when I didn't notice her. Saying my name with so much love & admiration. And giving me hugs letting me know, that her love would have me wet for days. But I was stupid for not pursuing that interracial love, with a white queen. I was so worried about what my family was saying. That I was mad at myself. Because she was that white chocolate queen, who had that sexy walk & sexy talk. As I was returning for my final year of high school, for the fall of 2008. She was still thinking of me, I had thought I didn't have another chance. We had the same spanish class again, to make this right. This is how I knew love was speaking to me. Cause she knew I was shy & scared, when it came to love. She should of been made the love, that would be my queen for prom. But I let that ignorance of others, get to me again. So when the school dance came around, Katie asked will I be her date, for the dance. And I kept messing up, then spirit week came. At lunch I went to one of the tables, where they had different items. Her best friend was on the cheer leading team, &she asked me am I buying Katie flowers. I said yes I am, that's when Katie came out of no where. Asking are those flowers for her & it made her smile even more. When you reject love this many time, it will still be speaking to you. I had to learn that love will always overcome & heal that pain. So I went back to focusing on track & finishing high school. That I didn't hear the lyrics of love, from Rhiaunna who was also on the track team. And I had known her since 2007. Her love began speaking to me, when she started talking to me after school. Saying things like why you always so loud. And she always had a big smile on her face. I was like dayum she is, that brown sugar love that I needed. It was a trip to me because every time, I was standing by myself. She was always approaching me, revealing that brown sugar love, that was so sweet. After the African American senior awards, she approached me with that sexy orange dress. A poem was already being written, that I didn't even express them lyrics. Rhiaunna said that I was the only one, that could make here laugh & smile. I use to write her messages on facebook, she telling me she knew. If that was so. Then why didn't you, tell me why you finally wanted me. As that drop of caramel that would be, that love that never ends. This made me wonder would Rhiaunna and I, start making love to one another. If she was my prom date. This would be a love story, that would be turned into a movie. We graduated high school and went our separate ways. But years later my best friend John L. Still calls me telling me, have I talked to Rhiaunna. He's always telling me, she still ask about me. Then he says you start dating her. I kept saying why she didn't tell me, what she really felt. John told me you know how girls are. When it comes to having a crush on a man. And I said she wasn't shy when we were in high school. So I don't know why she is acting shy now. There is no reason for me to hate, on that brown sugar love. That called for me & spoke to me. Rhiaunna when you read my book, you will know my love for you. Didn't turn into hate, & it didn't fade away.

To become that man of love

So I was starting my first year at Santa Monica City College, I had made some new friends. I was taking a basketball class, during the summer of 2010. Then I met this chick who started flirting with me. Throwing water on me, then I had slapped her on her ass. I had never got that close, to doing that to a woman. Krystin & I started dating, and she told me her past. A person's old dirty laundry doesn't bother me, because your past is your past. I thought it was real love, until she called me the night after. From spending a romantic day at Dock Wolier Beach California. She called to tell me that she had cheated on me. Yes I had cried, but I was to forgive her. Because you can't move on. If can't forgive that pain of love. We became good friends who saw each other every day between classes. It woke me up not to give up on love or keep rejecting it. There is a reason why pain exist. I was still lost & trying to find myself. To discover what my gifts, skills &abilities were. Then I had discovered at the age of 19, that I was supposed to be an actor who does poetry. My first audition was at Gower Studios on Sunset & Gower Hollywood California. I had got the audition when a PR rep from the company, to my school. I was so happy that I had found something, to act out my emotions. But what put my dreams on hold was not having money, & not having the support of my family. The year of 2011 came & it was a battle for real. That becoming a pro athlete wasn't for me. The journey of a transformation began, when the creator, poetry & music. Called for me when I was 5 years old. But I didn't accept the responsibility due to fear, to remain in the spotlight. And finally I had to deal with this pain, that gave me so much anger due to ignorance. I had already wrote a series of poems at the age of 16, that I didn't tell anyone. There was no more being scared & sensitive. So I recited my first poem, her flow is my melody. At this open mic called the Jamboree, off of Fairfax &Melrose Hollywood California. My soul brotha Fonze told me about this open mic. At first it was cool but then, the audience became infected with booty bandits. I had forgot this is Hollywood California, the capital of bullshit. I had met Fonze on the number 7 big blue bus. And we were brought into each other lives, to deliver one another. For still holding on to them demons that blinded us from the truth. Then we began hanging out every day, the community had notice that we are brothers. We made the creators love, faith & prayer, poetry &music so strong. That we were healing people & ourselves everyday. We had no choice but to throw away our egos, in order to defeat the devil. That boring open mic taught me, that I must not shut down. When the audience gets rude & chaotic. I had no choice but to find a new home, to let my voice be heard for poetry. I was doing my research on google & found this open mic, called Nicetys Poetry N Motion lounge. It was on 91st & Western ave, that had went down on Thursdays &Friday nights. As I had came to Nicetys on a Thursday night, I went to go speak with the owner. I had told her my age, that I was 20. And Ms. Nicety told me, you have to be 21 & over. Before she let me walk away. Ms. Nicety let me perform because she received a message, that I had a testimony to tell. This love of poetry &music that called for me, gave me an out let. To deal with my emotions. So Nicetys Poetry N Motion lounge, became a weekly thang. But the spiritual battle got deeper when, the devil was using my family. To get rid of me. All because I had to learn that I was the medicine, to that pain. That gives love more truth & power.
My mom who needed love
I was kicked out my house for helping, my twin Shante Mask find a place. We had both went to the Los Angeles County building, to apply for food stamps & General relief. After our case was approved we had, to look into housing assistance programs. We only could find transitional housing, which was like a group home. But this type of program was full of all type of people. It was already bad enough I couldn't sleep, or didn't eat that much. Because I wanted to resolve this issue of me & my mom both being hurt. And the creator told me not to forsake her, or leave her. So my mom had forgiven me, for not healing her pain. Then I returned home because I had enough, of that transitional housing. It was time for me to free my closet full of demons. See you can't have love, if you can't forgive those that gave you pain. It took me a long time to understand this, because I didn't deal with my nightmares or issues. No matter how big the scars are. They can be turned back into love, we must remain open to it. I am happy that the creator, poetry &music did call for me. I probably would of joined a gang, got hooked on drugs, or committed suicide. This love that was dealing with me for so many years. Was speaking to me, to prepare me, to preach to people. Who left love for drugs, money, fame etc. This was the test for me, not to remain so emotional. Then I began telling Ms. Nicety what was going on. She suggested that I go to her nephews church. And get deep into my spiritual journey. She took me in as her adopted son. I was very thankful for her letting me perform, at her open mic spot. Ms. Nicety was teaching me so much that it made see. That no matter what, nothing can replace the love of your family.

The Cinderella story

As the year 2011 was coming to an end. I was hearing about the Americas Got Talent Auditions. It was going to be on December 18 &19, at the Anaheim convention center. So I had registered to go on as a lyrical poet. I'm just thinking that this was going to be, me going to an audition. Little did I know love was calling for me, to speak to me. The night before the audition, I was in a hurry. That I didn't bring warm clothes for the cold. All I had was a sweater, my back pack, & the bible. But it wasn't enough to keep me going through the night. I was the first one, to be in line. I thought it would already be a long line, at 8pm at night. But more people started coming by each hour of the night. And that's when I notice this young black queen. Who was fine, like a never before seen flower. She was like 4 in line, with her nice tent. I tried to get some sleep, but the cold winds kept me up. Destiny & I both woke up, and we began talking. And she was asking me, what song should she sing. I told her to sing, what's in her heart. Her voice was so calm & sweet. It had me think she had that anointing. It was now 5am and we were both drained. So we both got out of line, to get some hot chocolate. From the star bucks inside the hotel. We were waiting like an hour for it to open up. And it was finally 6am, so we walked back to the line. As soon as we found out, we had lost our spots in line. Was it divine faith that we placed in the same group. I guess it was because Destiny kept approaching me. With that big lovely smile & that body like woah. So she began asking me questions. And I didn't reject her love, that was speaking to me. As we were one of the last groups to audition. I waited for Destiny after my audition. I heard her kill her audition. I seen her tears of joy, & knew it was her time to shine. Before we went our separate ways. She told me to take her number down & I did. A week had went by, & she had called me. I thought the man was supposed to be, the one to lead. The first step in name of love. We spent a few weeks talking on the phone. That frustration of not being able, to see each other got to us. So she made a date to come to Los Angeles. She said does it bother me, that we live 4& a half hours away from it each other. I said lets see where things go. It was now January 2012, we were finally going to meet. So Destiny & her new born son, came to my mom's house. I introduced her to my mom. Then we went to McDonald's to get her son something to eat. Then we came back to my mom's house, sat on the front porch talking. Then she ask me, when was the last time you had sex. I told her I am a 20 year old virgin. She said you will be alright, once you get some good pussy. Then we went in the house, sat on the couch, to talk some more. Then she reached in my pants, to grab my dick. And she said dayum you already hard & wet, lets go. So we entered my bed room, she quickly found a toy. For her son to play with. She quickly takes off, her pants & panties. Wanting me to get on top, & begin stroking that wet pussy. Yes we were about raw sex, it just felt right. So the first round of sex felt so dam good, that I couldn't pull out. As I stopped to think, once I bust this big nut inside her. She will become pregnant. But it was time to get back to losing my virginity. And she grabbed me, to not stop. It felt good to bust that first nut. I still had an erection, then I said. Let me hit it from the back doggy style. The sex position doggy style became, my favorite position. And after each time we saw each other. All we did was have sex. I was like dayum, she put it on me each time. We were so busy having sex. That we didn't spend time, getting to know one another. Then she tells me she prayed for a man, that was no different than her. when I had got my tablet return money. I had more than enough, for an engagement ring. On February 14, 2012, I went to fox hills mall in Culver City CA. To buy some things for Victoria Secret, &buy the ring from Kevin jewlers. After a long night of love making. I Jarvon had proposed to Destiny on February 15, 2012. So at the age of 20, I was now engaged. I was taking on a huge responsibility, & I couldn't hold back now. So a few months went by, of me &her. Going back & forth to see one another. The relationship ended in August 2012. It ended because I didn't have job, and I wasn't going to move Visalia CA Central Valley. There was just so many things that went wrong. She was insecure thinking I was a pimp. And she also kept questioning my sexuality. Asking me if I am a bisexual man. Destiny was constantly  persecuting me because I was weird. We both came from the same background. That we could relate to each other's pain. I let her keep the ring as a gift. I had learned so much from this relationship. That I must not throw away my love, unconditional love & kindness.

The healing from that love

My pain from this relationship started to heal. Once I let the creator speak to me with my new gift. To start singing romantic love songs. So no matter how many times, my heart got broke. Love was always there to speak to me. You see love is not the enemy. It's that ignorance that keeps us from the real truth. It is now 2015 & I have been single for almost 4years now. Because I am so focused on becoming an actor who does poetry. Becoming a male model. And soon have my own massage therapy business. Its now the summer of 2015 and I had to make another change. So I heard about Job Corp and I applied online for the orientation. My new journey for success began on July 20,2016 at Long Beach Job Corp CA. I'm thinking that I was gone loner and anticocial, staying focus for success. Let alone be in the spotlight light again of having love. But I was wrong and this new adventure for romance began in August 2016. In this class called career success foundation. At lunch this young lady Justice asked me do you think I'm pretty. And I replied I will write it down. So I had written a poem for her called she is that love that speaks. And I asked my friend Cedric at lunch time to give to her. The next day thats when the adventure for romance began. But I didn't take her serious because she was young and wil. It was a week later I decided to give her a chance, and told her roomate Stephanie to give her my number. This first phone conversation took place Sunday night, where she wanted to hear more poetry. Days later went by and I'm thinking is time to have love again. But I just became frustrated because all she would call me for. Is to go the store for her. How do u love and miss a person, if you don't take the time to spend time with the person. I continued to be nice to her to show patience. I gave Justice a chance not because she is that thick caramel red bone. But because she needed to be reminded that black men, are more than niggas. Who pursue women just to fornicate. Another suprise took my heart, two days after thanksgiving Saturday. Where ex first love Destiny called me, saying she will be LA lets meet up. So I go to Compton Califronia to meet up with Destiny. I was happpy because I waited 5 years for this. And she was happy to see me. And we started our reconnection, by talking everyday on the phone again. Yes this is a battle for me to prove to her and her kids, that I'm not a nigga. Who doesn't appreciate a good woman. Its been back and fourth due to her past of not having the right man, but the creator spoke to her again. So we finallly are making this work, cause loved called for us agian. Not to be torn by our scars of pain. I have decided to go the army, so that Destiny and I can have the life of not being broken. But I finally had to let destiny go, because she left me for the second time. She stopped talking to me, cause of her family issues. And because we are not in our careers. Now I must erase the wedding vows I wrote. So I no longer have to bleed from faliure. This was my experience. When love calls it will speak. To teach us that love, was never the lie.

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Da Lyrics Of Love

Yes I want to
Me wet a queen
Who is in her
Late 20's to early 30's
A woman who is
Not only is
Fine as wine
But a woman
Who is educated
That can make
My dick wet
Off that deep intellectual conversations
No I didn't
Pursue you for
That easy pussy
I pursued you
cause you were made different
And that made me wet
Your touch of
Your mind;body; & soul
Will give me an orgasm
I ain't never had
This is da love
I been wanting
Am I being freaky
Yes cause you
Opened me up
In ways I never
Been able to let go
And we should make love
On every melody
That is played
In our hearts
Never thought I
Would be approached
By a queen
Who wants love
That keeps communication alive
She doesn't just want
A man who
Only likes the normal
But a man
Who is into
The same sexual appetite
That she has
She wants a relationship
That doesn't involve
Her being abused &used
See I been
Wanting that new chapter
Of love that
Gets supa freaky & spontaneous
It would already tell me
I wouldn't need
To pay for sex
Let alone recycle
Pussy after pussy
Like I did
My pair of Jordan's
That queen that was made different
Is da beginning
Of that everlasting love
That would have our kingdom
Staying strong
This love we created
Is more than being freaky
Between da sheets
You are too beautiful
To let da pain
Put you back in chains
Don't let that
Chocolate cream of yours
Turn into shit
These fuck boys
Didn't take away your love
they gave you a taste
On what love shouldn't be
Did I say
I was da love doctor
But I am a king who understands
Cause I had a cup
Of that bad
Alcohol of love
I ain't gone
Just use my dick
for that sexual penitration
Ima use that
Unknown definition of love
To give you
That orgasm that you need
These are da lyrics of love
Not da music of sex
Yes there should be
Who can express themselves
But most only do it
When they bust a nut
Don't you know
A queen needs more
Than just your dick
She needs you
To be ready
To fight for love
that was never dead
She wants you
To let it be known
She is that queen
that you been waiting on
Don't put her
On a plate
Like meat of side bitches
Us kings only need
One woman as our queen
Yes sex every day
Would be amazing
Once you get that
King or queen
Who is ready
To turn your pain
Back into love
That freak in you
Would be unleashed
Once we defeat
Da battle of lies
We will both become wet
Once we become one
Creating da new
Lyrics of love
That would make
Da music of sex
Sound so beautiful
There is no need
To unleash your orgasm
To a person
Who is still
About that fake love
It's okay if you
Use to lust
But know that
Love is not da enemy
Dayum I can't rest
Not knowing did ya love
Put me through da test
I can't get wet
If we can't have
That romantic type of sex
I'm not taking you for granted
I am letting da
Da universe know
That there is
Only one queen
who can penitrate my flesh
Your love relaxes me
like a glass of wine
That I want abuse it
Just to use it
Your lyrics of love
Gave me a reason
Not to be a beast
You said you want sex
No need to worry
Cause I'm taking my time
to make love
To your unfading beauty
To reveal your unfading love
Of birth &healing
I ain't just spitting words
Of fore play
To get you all wet
Cause my love
Is da medicine you need
I can express myself
without my dick
Stroking da hell
Out of ya pussy
I am that love
That never ends
These are da lyrics of love

Booty bandit lifestyle

They tried so hard
To make me
Da devil's new bitch
But I'm not about
Being a prostitute
Who was a king
Dat became a queen
So dis is
Da lifestyle of a man
Selling dat sickness
Like its crack
What da fuck is
Going on in Amerika
No wonder why women
Lost admiration for us men
We rather be bitches
Without a dick
Hell na its time
For a new revelation
Every where I go
Its booty bandits
In da left &right
All dis pussy out here
And they say fuck dat
Da devil really did
Take our flesh
To his ass
Ain't no such thing
Being born gay
They been changing
Our sexuality
Through da food we eat
I cry cause we
Rather be slaves
And not return
To dat love
Dat was never dead
Going to jail
To hand over your manhood
Ain't da problem
Its those lost men
Who continue to
Spit dem gay lyrics
In they songs
And now they
Advertising for channel perfume
And Victoria Secret
Thinking whats done
In da dark
Ain't come to da light
And these young men
Wanna get belly percings
And face percings
Thinking dats what
Real niggas like
Ain't no real nigga
Gone live dat life
Cause da devil said
Dis how
U get into heaven
But we wanna
Make money so bad
We can't do it
No other way
So we just
Play da game
Of being gay

dat love dat was never dead

Lucifer u were created
From dat love
Dat was never dead
But u saw it as weakness
So u became a beast
Dat bangs for da streets
U infected our
Mother &father, Adam &Eve
With dat fake love
So da universe became sick
When we walked away
From faith &love
So we destroyed God's creation
When we couldn't
Over come da pain
Now we livin
Da Amerikan dream
Where it's our new religion
It would of been a change
But we threw away da responsibility
So da haters
Are killing again
Just to put us
Back on house arrest
We only carry guns
Cause we don't believe
In da power of love
See da beast
Still playing da game of chest
And we can't stop
Bending over for fame
We rising up
When they kill
But we can't
Stop degrading our women
Let alone save our children
From being rape &molested
And we still gang banging
Cause we don't
Wanna do da work
To be a righetous man
And da poor
No longer receive love
Because they are mentally insane
We are dat beast
Dat come to an understanding
About dat love
Dat was never dead
It is da revolution
Dat frustration of rioting
Won't give us justice
Its dat love
Dat was never dead

That Black Love, that was never dead

Our hearts remain black
but we know
we ain't about being black
now u tell me
is dis a cold heart story
no its dat black love
dat was never dead
we can't defeat pain
if we constantly
sippin on da
alcohol of lies
Which stole our minds
Now u tell me
is dis a cold heart story
no it's dat black love
dat was never dead
can't holla black lives matter
if we don't know
about dat black love
dat was never dead
it wasn't Amerika
who stole our love
it was our ancestors
who went insane
now u tell me
is dis a cold heart story
no it's dat black love
dat was never dead
we gotta get our minds
off fame
and start building an empire
where self hatred &evil
no longer exist
and give our black queens
dat ever lasting love
With no injection
of dat fake love
now u tell me
is dis a cold heart story
no it's dat black love
dat was never dead
black queens u never
would of went insane
if wasn't for
black kings who were
regulating as pimps
but they were selling out
just to show
slavery still exist
now u tell me
is dis a cold heart story
no it's dat black love
dat was never dead
black queens getting mad
that black kings
went after white girls
Mexican;Hispanic;Latina;Asian etc
no be mad
that u had a weakness
for fuck boys
who kept nutting
all over u
with da dark
image of a man
now u tell me
is dis a cold heart story
no it's dat black love
dat was never dead
black queens say
their love never went
out of style
da black kings
can't keep it real
don't give him da pussy
until he goes to war
for your love
now u tell me
is dis a cold heart story
no it's dat black love
dat was never dead
us black men
gotta do more
than be financially stabled
we gotta reinvent
dat black love
dat was never dead
and make it sweet
like peach cobbler,candy yams
Hersheys chocolate pie
and chocolate fudge strawberries
it will erase
da black queens tears
who had to do
bad all by themselves
now u tell me
is dis a cold heart
no it's dat black love
dat was never dead
dis war of ignorance
will be over
once we let love
be da revolution

Thug Love or payless type of love

U say that want
That love that remains sweet
But u thirst
For that thug love
...

Cause u like it
Hardcore nasty style
Saying real gentlemen
Can't make no thug love
So ull just be
Rearranging your face
Off that pool of blood
When u don't
Suck dat dick
Like a queen should
So hell recycle u
Like shoes from
Da payless store
This is what
U call thug love
More like u are
His sex slave
That hell crave
After having sex
With them side bitches
Thug love ain't about
Beating da punani up
Until u nut
All over me
It's about giving love
That doesn't abuse u
Thug Love is a sexual fantasy
That wasn't meant for women
Who are more than
A sexual apetizer
Thug love is an expression
For men
Who pretend to be hard core
A man doesn't need
A fake title
When he makes love
Da right way
So women stop with
Da list of chores
Cause us men
Ain't afraid to get freaky
For da woman
Who is now
My everlasting queen of love

When Love Calls it will Speak

I thought it was love
That called for me
But it was
Just a woman
Dressed in pain
One night stands
Is the story of my life
That I'm sick of
Women calling me
Just for sex
So women please remind me dat
All women don't
Thirst to control
Let alone thirst to assume
Being mobilized for 4years
Has me questioning
Did I give up
No I just walked away
Saying she won't fight
For dat love
She never had
We met back
In May 2014
Dat I didn't realize
U was so interested in me
I got da love
And passion for words 
That I need to
Give it away to u
I always give advice
But I don't wana be
So intimidating to
Da broken hearts
So when love calls
It will speak
Just know da next time
I see u
I won't ignore u
I won't give u
A hand shake
Ima wrap u up
In my arms
Just like my love & words
Will open your heart
So when love calls
It will speak
Once I acknowledge u
As a woman
Doing things to soothe da pain
And making u my armor
It won't be about sex
Once I make u my queen
It will be about
Love calling for me
To make me work
For a woman
who isn't a sleeping beauty
So when love calls
It will speak
For u to wake up
From da sickness
Of bad love
So when love calls
It will speak
It will speak
When there are
No more animals left
To give us strength
We should of loved them
Da way we love ourselves
So da howling winds roar
For a new victim
 So when love calls
It will speak
When we
For letting da devil
Make u throw away love
Now da chains stab
When we exhaust da fear
So when love calls
It will speak
It has spoken
Even though we still bleed
From da dark
Image of a man
It has spoken
When u say
Good men don't exist
It has spoken
When men say
Women ain't loyal
U thought u knew love
But u just knew
Da sickness of bad love
So when love calls
It will speak

That fake rap game

U so fake
That yo pants remain low
Not knowing u are
Da devils new lover
So u rap without a soul
Cause there is too many
Hypocrites judging life
I aint no pimp ...
So don't blame a man
Cause u fell for that
Fake rap game
That was da blurred line
For getting sex
So much confusion
Now women turning
Into dikes &lesbians
Cause most men
Are addicted to
Being a pimp
Who is now a beast
Not wanting that love
So we play chess
Cause that fake rap game
Devoured da truth
Now most of us
Became sex addicts
Which is now da life style
If love wasn't da truth
Then why do we
Have an epiphany
When love calls for us
That fake rap game
Was da devils plan
To turn a woman against man
That fake rap game
Is a drug
That has da blind
Diluted with lies
So stop stabbing love
With your past
Cause that fake rap game
Can't kill love
That remains sweet

Does Love Still Exist

They reject me
Cause of my age
They reject me
Cause I am taking
On da full responsibility ...
To serve and heal unwillingly
So if love ain't da truth
Then why do we
Remain battling pain
Cause we want revenge
For those abusing us
And stabbing us
With self hatred
Tearing a deeper hole
In our own hearts
Where we have
Become black widows
And scorpions
Just killing cause
We have lost faith in everything
If love still exist
Then why we the people
Not teaching it
To our children
Who kill saying
Da hood has more love for me
If love still exist
Then why do most men
Have side bitches
And most women
Wanna be bad bitches
To get paid
For that unfading
Beauty and unfading love
If love still exist
Then why are we
Not using it
To heal the beast
Who is not a beast
But an angel who
Lost his way
He posioned eve
With that fake rap game
To start a war
Saying a man
Is just a pimp
Who likes to fuck
If love still exist
Then why dont we
Love ourselves
If love still exist
Then we the people
Should have love for all

Love is the truth

We stand when
They murder us like animals
Without a soul
But where is the love
To dissolve the
Evil &self hatred
Love is not
For the weak
It's a shield
That is used
To erase the
Demonic fore play of no belief
So we can't
March for justice
Unless we have
Love for one another
Walk away from
That street life
And let love
Be the revolution
Us men have been portraying
The life of
Being a pimp
That we need
To be men
That will fight
For that real unfading love
So women can see
That a real gentlemen
Never is extinct
The Savage Beast
Made us slaves
To a universe
Of extinction & misery
That we must
Restore order with
Acts of kindness
Giving the hood
A new life
Where love is the truth
But the politicians
Don't want love
They gamble for
Our souls to take
Our love &faith
Should remain in our creator
Not in people
Who spit subliminal messages
I tell you
Love is the truth
That the beast
Will run when
We give him
Some of that love
That doesn't fade away
I tell you
Love is the truth
That the police
Will no longer
Bang for America
Once we bring love
Back into their life
I tell you
Love is the truth
That our generation
Needs to see
That love is not extinct
It was misunderstood
For so many years
I tell you
Love is the truth

I ain't no pimp

So u say
Ain't no such thing
As a gentlemen
Saying a man
Is nothing but a dog
Saying love is nothing
But that fake love
Did u dig
in that trash
To find that man
Who was abused
And manipulated like u
If I was a pimp
I wouldn't be
Trying to live right
Let alone write poems
About people's growing pains
You still blind
With the foreplay
Of no beliefs
Don't judge me
Cause of my sex appeal
If I was a pimp
I wouldn't be trying
To pursue that love
That remains sweet
If I was a pimp
I wouldn't be able
To feel any pain
If I was a pimp
I Would of been
In jail years ago
You just misunderstood
A real gentlemen
Who is not extinct
When I see a woman
Dressed in pain
What's on my mind
is that real love
Not making love to a gold digger
Who will give me
A death sentence
But to massage
Her body reminding her
That a man
Is not a beast
You think I write
To give women
A orgasm while
She hears me
Spit real lyrics
No I write
To spit the truth
I write to
give a deeper meaning
I write to say
I ain't no pimp
who is a squirrel
looking to bust a nut
I am that soul brotha
Who has that real love
And I'm in need
of a woman
who has that love
That remains sweet
So for the last time
Stop accusing me
of being a pimp
Cause pimp means
Pussy is a mans pleasure
If that was
A mans only pleasure
There would be no need
For a Woman's existence
And if u find
That man who
Is a pimp
Heal him with
That love that speaks