Why are u scared

Another year passes
And I'm still stuck
In the middle of this ocean
Cause I'm still scared
That I don't have support
All I ever wanted
Was to be that voice
For people who remain scared
My whole child I was abused
Treated like a disease
But I overcame it
By making people
Laugh & smile
So why do I feel like
A dead rose pedal
Who has no love
Because I let a 9 to 5 job
Kill my mental
All I had to do was keep
My passion for poetry alive
So why am I scared
Cause I don't have the energy
To remain positive
Can't let these reptiles
Kill us off
Cause their power source is fear
My sister lost faith
In living life
This mind is no longer locked
These mass shootings
Put us right back in fear
See love is the answer 
For fear to stop haunting us
We watch fake news
Cause we fail to get educated
But when it comes
To speaking truth
It's nothing but a comedy
The movie get out
Wasn't a comedy
It was a real story
On why we are no longer scared
So why am I scared
Cause I don't know
If I have the skills
To be the next great actor
But if don't try
Then I'll just be scared
To stay woke
Through the pain
For happiness and love

Get out

What happened to me I used to smile and laugh On the regular But im slowy dying From my anger and stress Did i forget Im not alone In this battle I see why my lack of faith Sent me to a prison Where these vampires Remain biting me In my nightmares Cause i failed To fight with This love for poetry The devil took in me in chains Cause i let this job Get to me But yet my best friends Came to save me I thought i was On my way To getting that real love But i let my impatience ruin me So she left me Cause i didn't Make love to her The right way Will i ever get out From this temporary sickness It was my fault That I didn't come back To this poetic medicine Fuck turining into a nigga Who has no heart And i will never bend over Cause you wish You can infect me With those bad intensions Can you get out From from this negativity But yet its your truth Cause love never saved you We gotta get out From the devils pain Or stay bleeding Liked it never rained The rich white folks Kicking the blacks Out the hood Now we suffer Cause we let ignorange Be our drug Forget using weed & alcohol Give me this pen So i can Shatter your pain With my voice for positivity

Poetry has left me

I became empty Once I started school And then I got a job So my mind Was filled with depression And then I fell into the dark Where no love couldn't reach me And that's when poetry Has left me The Nightmares kept me in chains Then the devil came knocking At the door Making me his prey of choice It's my own fault That poetry has left me It left me cause I don't pray Don't read the Bible All I do is be on my phone Looking at ass, tits, pussy and booty Jacking off like I never tasted pussy I see why poetry has left me Cause Im addicted To getting pleasure When I should be Making love to poetry Cause the creator made me a poet To keep me From becoming that sickness Poetry has left me Cause I let this job Give me stress When poetry should be my answer To recover from The trick of the devil Poetry has left me Since I am too lazy To write anymore To lazy to perform anymore Poetry has left me Cause I don't hear anymore Now my flesh is infected Cause I don't fight with passion anymore But if I don't write to inspire Then how will you know Love came back To save me