I need a womans beauty

To avoid physical contact

Because I might get rejected

To always help others find themselves

& not searching for love

Because my sensitivity keeps me trapped

So that left my life with many questions

Keeping the hood inside of me

Observing da universe

For what it was, not for what it had been created

First time having a crush

On my classmate,

This was in da 4th grade

Not letting out my affection

Kept me hidden

From those who wanted a real man

To love them for them

So I need a woman’s beauty

To make my heart sound like music

And revive the rose pedals in my veins

Making my heart beat

For every breath she takes

Approached by many young ladies

Who had desired my good looks?

Freezing in a pause

Cause my past still haunts me

So I need a woman’s beauty

To make my heart sound like music

Bringing back my smile

My passion for true love

And be able to cry

Because I am now free

From da beatings

And all judgment

Going to middle school

Trying new things

My thoughts became spiritual

At the 7^th grade dance

Pretending I didn’t know what to do

Until she grabbed me

Instead I ran to not get hurt

So I need a woman’s beauty

To make my heart sound like real music

And reminding me that women

Have more to offer than just sex

Relaxing you with a massage

Relaxing you with a cooked meal

With passionate long kisses

Left in a pond full of people in high school

Until 10^th grade

Where I met my 1^st love

In Spanish class, who I made laugh &smile

Each day not paying attention

To her hints made her come

Up to me giving me hugs

Saying my name with passion

So I needed her love

To make my heart sound like music

So it can heal my pain

Wipe my tears

To hold me when I am disappointed

Someone to make me push harder

1^st year of college

Wanted to be laid back

Staying sporty until I was discovered

By those who saw opportunity

Taking a basketball class in the summer

Meeting different people

From different back grounds

She found love that shattered

My heart into pieces

So that left me on a 9month reservation

Because it was hard for me to trust again

Or share my unconditional love

Her poisonous love

Left me hostile to

Reject those fine as wine

So I need a woman’s beauty

To make my heart sound like real music

When I touch a woman’s hand

When I kiss her all over

Play with her ass &tits

That will let her know

My love is one of kind

Please find me and break these chains

That deserted me in darkness

Of broken hearts