I refuted my family's love

Chosen by da lord

Left me to hide 
my passion and identity

So I was confused, 
on people’s questions

Just to get me to talk

First day of school,

Didn’t know I was gone get attacked verbally

Couldn’t prepare cause I had to create my tools

So I can win my battles

Observing those who, had that special love

Wondering why some turn da cheek

And go on a path of destruction

Shaping their identity

Of what they learned

Not covering up with lies

That’s when the devil, threw chains at me

Making me lost vessel

Trapping me with fear

Having me to take a loss, at the end of the day

I refuted my family’s love

Due to da fact,

They all drowned in stupidity

And crying of their suffering

Keeping me silent, pretending nothing happened

Only waking up with a smile on my face

Being blessed that still alive

To confirm da message, of pursuit of happiness

So that doesn’t mean I can’t create my own       

Giving up and tired of dealing with drama

Dragging me making bleed, for every step I take

Not paying attention to reality

Made u all fall at ease

Because your emotions, became inflicted with poison

Of bad nectar being spread like a virus

I refuted my family’s love

Because I was raped, which made me reject people?

I refuted my family’s love

Cause of all da abuse from other kids

Going into a battlefield

Where I was da victim

Making me afraid to have people close to me

I refuted my family’s love

Cause of all da sexual harassment

From guys and girls

I refuted my family’s love

Cause my friends didn’t have my back

Just leaving me there to die

So I said I am my own man, who doesn’t cry

Defending everything they threw at me

Made me da man I am today

Growing up without my family’s love

Had me throw away opportunities

Only asking will if they

Accept me for who I am

So that doesn’t mean I can’t create my own

So I had to be reminded

By my fallen angel brother

Who seeks what I seek

God granting his one wish

For me to open my heart

Reminding me of this quote

Even though my heart

Has been broken many times

Doesn’t I gave up on love

Cause they can’t, break my poetic ways

Going to a pick nick

Being surrounded by lovely women

Who seeks a king, and willing to take care of him?

That’s when my attention

Was drawn by a little girl

Who was meant to be my daughter?

Because she had da same gift I had

Her flirting touched deep inside my heart

Which made me give her a hug?

And be that father she never had

Her mom &friend amazed

By my never before seen sex appeal

So that’s 2 women for da price of 1

I am done refuting my family’s love

I want to create my own

Erasing my past of sensitivity

Having my heart glow, with so many melodies

Will forever set me free